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Thursday, February 28, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 2:17 AM.

current mood: bad :(

Time to update again.... this few days nothing much to update until today but this few days i have a sudden feeling that really bad.... This few days i felt that i was really lonely that it felt like there's a big hole.... i felt really bad that sometimes i do wish that i did not exist... i don't what was the reason for me to feel like this.... I really hope this feeeling really go away it is really big burden for me... Why this two years a lot of unhappy stuff happening.. Sometimes i do really hope that i quickly graduate and ran away from this place as soon as possible... This few days were the days of studying... I started to stay back two weeks ago to do all my work... it does work to study in school because there were least destruction but sometimes i felt that why am i so stupid.. i already study the subjects and try my best to practice but why can't i have really good results that satisfy me... i have never felt any satisfaction of my studies since i enter sec 3... i really do hope that my study now could be as satisfying as i was in sec 2... Sometimes i felt to give up on all but i just can't give up... It really iritated me when i did not understand what my teacher was teaching and i got really bad results... Eventhough this year is not as bad as sec 3 but this year really make me feel frustrated if i could not go on to the better... Sec 4 is really tiring... i think i have to end here....

Ps: Peseverence
~.~sTeFFi~.~

Saturday, February 23, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 2:57 AM.

hi to all of you... time to update again.. Before i am updating about today.. let me update about yesterday's event... yesterday was cca day and this time round we have to wear our full u... we get our badges... hehe... at long at last i got my ds 1 badge.... Then after cca we have physics test.. the test SUPER DIFFICULT!! Before the test we, suddenly Rea told me that there will be Indonesian group will be coming to our school... When i heard about that i was really excited..... Then when i met cindy and miranda infront of malay room, she was saying that she wanted to find Mr wardi to talk about it, so in the end we went around the school to find him... Inthe end i asked Gerald did he saw mr wardi, he said he went for prayer... ooooo yeah i just remember about it.. Then i stayed back in school to eat lunch and AGM.... During the lunch i was asked by cindy to play basketball and i agree with her.... After AGM i quickly rushed to leslie's house to play... the amaizing thing was, we have 4 new comers who were Arina, the two keith, edwin and soon ji... actually dewi went to joined us also but she did not play the basketball but she was talking to me and disa.... Around 7 pm we went to Great world to eat... around 8.30 i went back home... yesterday i burn my midnight to finish up my Laos cd plate....

Then today i woke up at 7.30am to go for cca... We went to East Coast to skate... it was really fun to skate at east coast.. But it was really tiring to take control steps to skate.... we skate from the end of corner to the jetty near mc donald.... After that we went back to schools and dismissed.. me,xue li, cynthia and reagina eat at opposite chicken rice.. Then i went back home... after that i have my good sleeps until 6pm.. my best records.... ok now i have to end here... hope u all have a nice day....

Tuesday, February 19, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 5:35 AM.

Hi all readers... its time for me to update again..... First of all let me update today's event... Today was really tiring day.... Today i really felt sleepy because i slept at 2 am yesterday to rush for the design of the cd plate... I needed to print and stick it.... i really went through a lot of printing because it could not print on the exact point until i really fed up, so i came up with new way which was bery useful... When i found out the new way, it was already middle of the night and in the end i have to burn my midnight.. Eventhough i burnt my midnight but i really satisfied with my work.... Sorry guys if u get the unsuccesful design because that was the first trial of using the new method... Ok now lets proceed with the event.. Today i have GOS presentation during the upper sec assembly... I did not present but i need to come up to the stage to receive certificate from Mrs Yeo... There were Guest from Lions Club to see the presentation... The cuests are Mr Tay ,Mr Ken jung,Samuel's auntie, Mr lee and his wife... Mrs Yeo receive cheque from lions club.. WOW!! After the assembly has ended, we met Mr Tay and talked to him for awhile... Then he went to join with the rest of the guest for the school tour...When i was eating at the canteen, i saw them again and i talked to Mr tay and talked to mr lee's wife for a while... After that i went to gb room for meeting... After the meeting, i stay back infront of the staff room to do my homework... I have created motto for my self which is study,study,study if u want to be succesful... i think it was the worst motto i ever heard... Then after school i went back home and have my tution... i think i have to end here now... i need to go to my LALA land already... C u on the next update and have a nice day..
~.~sTeFFi~.~

Sunday, February 17, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 5:32 AM.

time to update again.... i woke up at 9am.. actually me, jo and my auntie were supposed to go temple at 9am but i was late so we delayed until almost 10am... In the end tien 2 and aina joined us... We reached there around 10.30am.. We were there until 11am... Then we headed to buy chicken rice and You Tiao or Cakwe... After we went to bugis junction for awhile... actually Aina and Thien 2 want to followe me to library but in the end they didn't, so i went to library alone.. On the way there i met Jessica(Christopher's sister).. She did realise about me but in the end both of us didn't great each other... Then i borrowed some books there.... Then i headed home... When i reached home i felt sleepy but i did not sleep in the end i played computer... After around 1 hours jo came to my room... We chit-chat for awhile and she read magazine.... After sometimes both of us fall asleep until 6.30pm... Then we slacked around until 7pm.. After that i went to her room to solve some maths qn but i can't solve.... Sorry jo for not able to solve the qn.....After that i went to 12th floor to have my dinner... After dinner i went back to my room.. Actually i was planning to go for bath but when i saw Sonia called me through msn i sat down there and chat with her.. I just realise that i did not meet with her for 4 years and we planned to met up end of this year... We have to meet ok...

Now let's proceed to another topic... i really did not want to talk about her but i could not bear with myself already... She did not change at all how i could respect her...i wanted to talk to her about it but i knew that if i talked about it she would totally angry... I did not want to create anymore conflict... I really could not respect her anymore if she didn't change... I knew it is really bad but if she kept on doing the same things how am i could respect about it... i didn't now what to do now.... ok don't talk about it anymore...

After Talking to Sonia just now i suddenly really missed my GMIS friends.... I really missed her but i really missed another person who is.....

I REALLY MISSED HER...

Saturday, February 16, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 7:18 AM.

first of all let me start my blog with the event happen during valentine's day.... This year Valentine's day as usual, lonely again but this time round it was the worst valentine's day i ever had... Actually the Indonesian group have planned to go out but i didn't join them... Sorry to all of you i could not join you all but hopefully you guys have a fabulous day and now i wish you guys again happy belated valentine's day... The reason i did not join them because i have chemistry extra class and after that i have maths tution.... I really felt sad that i could not join them and actually i really wanted to go for that outing... HUHUHU...T.T.. Ok now lets continue to update the event that happened on Friday...

Really that day was really the most unlucky day... In the morning we have cca... Actually i have prepared game for that day but it was changed to PE... it was kind of ok... The thing that made me pissed of was when we were gathering at the parade square for drill.... Me and Wilona did not eat during recess so we went to GB room to relax for awhile before recess end and some of the girls also went to GB room... We supposed to reach parade square at 9.30 but we drag the time so the person who came late have to do punishment...Most of the people who were in the GB room earlier have to do punishment and s the rest did not need to did it because they were late, so we did 25 push up for our punishment... the things that made me piss of was when i saw one of the girls did not do the push up, so i said that to her" do your push up properly." but she said she could not do it then i said to her if u can't do it then did ur squad then she said she don't want then i said to her if u don't want to do ur squad then do ur push up.... i thought she was angry and she was complaining to the person next to her... The things that made me piss of is not about she talk back about me but the seriousness of doing punishment... Everybody have to do punishment and it was equal for everyone that was late...The Thing ws during the punishment, she was just in the postion of push up but did not do any action.... i already gave her another choice if she can't do the push up but she still refused to do the punishment... Then during afternoon we went to Hall to listen to talk... After that we had our lunch opposite and we headed back to school to prepare for going to Ngee An Poly.. It was really intersting place... From the visits, i really learned a lot of skills...

After the visits, i went to vivo to buy belated valentine's choclates... I went to Giant to purchase the choclates...After i paid the choclate, i just walk away and forgot to take the choclate and i went to candy empire to buy choclate again but at Candy Empire i realised that i needed another choclate.. I was lazy to went all the way in to the Giant so i went to Watson to searched for it but it was out of stock, so i went to Giant to buy the choclate.. Then when i paid the choclate i realised that i did not take the other choclates that i bought earlier... Then i talked to the cashier person after i paid the choclate... She asked me to took out the recipt... She checked for me which cashier counter, so it was beside her counter, so i asked whether i left my choclates that i have already paid.. She tried to search her counter but it was not there, so i went to the customer Service to check whether she put the choclate there and try to find solution from them but the choclate was not there so the staff there called another person to help me... i try to talk to her whether she could give me the change of the choclate but she said can't and asked me to check it first, so i went to Watson to check and Candy Empire but it was not there...Therefore i went back to Giant again and asked the person to check at the cashier that i paid the choclate but it was not there... This person was so nice that she will give me one box of the choclate free...first i was reluctant but she forced, so in the end i accepted... The other two box of choclate i bought again... Then she gave me free stuff but i did not know what is the thing... It was really unlucky day.....

Today i have Leadership Conference at GB HQ... i met Xue Li at mrt station.. i was really late..sorry Xl for coming late... Then we went to Hq and we reached there around 8.35.. When i reached there i saw all the girls were already fold in.. therefore we were late.. Then i after mark attendance me and her quickly join the contigent for games... It was icebreaker games.. kind of fun too.... Then we went to worship room for worship... I thought worship room was just a small room but i was wrong the room was bigger than i imagine it was kind of hall at the HQ... we have worship for 1 hour.. Then we have session by Miss Carol to talk about her life.. It was about 2 hours.. Then follow by Martin Tan session... He was really funny and good speaker.. He talked about ethics... Some of the stuff he talked was kind of true... one of the thing was when he asked to draw the house.. Most of the girls came out with the picture of house with the chimney... when he elaborate about it, it was really true and funny... The saddening one was he talked about his child but i did not want to elaborate about it.... Then followed by lunch.. After lunch we had another session from Glenn.... He was also a good speaker.. He also talked about his and how to make decision.... Then we have session by pastor... It was kind of boring... hehe...... after that followed by learning some campfire songs... After that we have another session by miss Pearl Pang about her journey in Gb since primary school... Her photos when she was young looks very funny... after her session we have Dinner.... Then followed by campfire.. The campfire some part was fun some part doesn't seem fun.. We have friends from Philipine to join with us during campfire.... Then after that we were dismissed.. We stayed back to do reflection and we headed back home... I reached home around 10.30pm... This year Leadership conference was the most fun conference because we have campfire... This was about three days event and now i have to end here... Have a nice day...
~.~sTeFFi~.~

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 2:25 AM.

yeah time to update again.... chinese new year holidays have ended which means time to work hard... sec 4 really tiring like mad... really had a hard time to have break... Chinese new year was the time i had my break and fun time with all my cousins... we were really did a lot of fun and stupid things... Especially when we went to Waterbom near my house... Waterbom is a water theme park like Wild Wild Wet... We really did a lot of stupid stuffs there but it was really fun... I think i did not have any more break until O level ends..eventhough it was holiday but i still need to study... T.T... i am really scared with my o level exams.. especially when teachers indicated that ur time went very fast that ur o level exam almost near... i am quite scared because a lot of stuffs i need to buck up... ok lets not continue with this... next two days is valetines day.... hope really had fun on that day but i don't think so... i have ISP until 3:45... SOBS!! this morning we have exercise with the drum and it is really very funny because the two drummers stand in front to beat the drum but in the end is the teacher who beat the drum whom the teacher don't know how to play drum.... we have to follow the beat which i thought it was rahter unsuccesful.... When i want to go back home after school, i saw two indonesian girls from our school... Both of them spoke indonesian.. actually i wanted to approach them but they were talking so i could not cut their conversation... next time if i met them i will approach them.. another people to be add into the indonesian gangs..... i think i have to end here... have a nice day....
~.~sTeFFi~.~

Monday, February 04, 2008 ♥

affection and love showed @ 2:17 AM.

first of all i have to update my blog for the laos trip... so today's post is about the laos trip.... let me start with day one...

day one
first i went to bukit merah took taxi to agnes's house downstairs... then we went to airport together.... we reached there around 12.30.. we were supposed to meet at 1.00 so we went to Popeyes to eat our lunch... then around 1:00 we rushed downstairs because we were almost late and we have not eat finished our french fries so in the end we packed up the french fries and straight away went down to meet them... After we met them, me and agnes sat down on the floor and ate our french fries while waiting for the rest to come and for the check in... after sometime our principal came to see the condition.... after a few minutes have passed we heard that Alfred's pasport need to renew.... so he might not able to go... then Ms Lio and Mrs Ng came to help him to renew his pasport... so they quickly rushed to Lavender to renew his pasport.. In the End, he made it to come at 3pm... after he checked in we took some picture and we headed to go into the gate.... After going through the immigration we quickly run to the gate.... Luckily we were not late... the flight was about 2 hours... when we reached there, we played around at the thai's airport... after playing around, we didn't know where to get to the plane... suddenly Mr tay called my phone.... so he said that we need to enter the gate and went downstairs..so we were running again.. luckily we didn't miss the bus to go to the plane.... we reached Vientiane which is the capital city of Laos at 8pm and straight away we headed to Novotel Hotel... this is some of the photo...

Thailand's airport

during misson
we woke up early in the morning... we departed from Vientiane to Thakek which is the province of Laos... it took us about 6 hours to arrive... When we reached, we straight away went to the university's campus at laos.. first we ate our lunch first and then we started our duty... me,amanda,agnes and geoffrey did the crowd control inside... when i saw the crowd, it really amazed me... so many people that willing to stay under the hot sun just to get a pair of spectacles... i did crowd control for three days and it was really tiring.... i have to stand from 8 am to 12.30 sometimes even 1.00 to do the crowd control... after lunch time then i get to do some job inside... the fourth and the fifth day was the best experiences... on the fourth day i did the eye drop until around afternoon... after that i got the chance to do the checking degree by the machine that most optic's shop have it to check the degree... i really gain new experience using that machine and i would never experience it again... it was so interesting to check people's degree by using that machine.... the machine works like this... the patient has to look at the small hole on the machine and inside the hole, there was picture of small red house.... i have to find the small dot and pressed the button on the controller... the degree of the patient's eye would appear... if i was not wrong the machine called auto-refraction... the fifth day i did some packing of the spectacles that needed to send to Savanahkhet which is another province of Laos.. we served around 16000 people for both provinces including the cataract operation.... this is some of the pictures..

alfred was giving out ticket..

Agnes was doing the eye drop

some of the lion's club members doind the dispensing spectacles..

cindy doing the crowd control

this is the packing spectacles

Euginia dealing with the auto-refraction machine

they were checking for the tickets..

collection of the spectacles..... SO MANY OF THEM!!

this is the crowds...

Group Photo

during dinner time and the fun time

The time we only could relax was during dinner but dinner time is the most fun and exciting time.. The time we know the people from other country better.... it also called bonding time....Our dinner restaurant was always the same for 4 days in laos but the food was different.. the first day we had fried rice with meats and vege.... when i was sitting down togther with miss wu, Sarah and the people from us sitting down together we had a lot of fun.. one of them i was telling us jokes.. which is really damn funny especially when he was talking about rooster... Lol... second day we had bbq at the same restaurant but this time round me and sarah sat with different person but we also with miss poli and she also always talk about jokes but the people were not as humurous as the people who i sat with on the first day.. third day we had special dinner with the auction... we had special food... On that day was also jason's bday... he came from China.... the things that they sold for auction was so interesting but i did not buy anything because some of the stuff were quite expensive..... The fourth day was our last day for our mission so duirng dinner time we had celebration together with the local people in laos that helped us in the mission... after dinner we did dancing with the rest of the prefects... we kept on pulling one another to came up and dance.. we really had a fun time.. on that day was also another person's bday but i had forgotten her name...so we celebrated for her again.... we headed back to hotel at around 9pm...
this were some of the photos...

Group Photo

this is the cloth that miss wu get it during auction

Ipod Only For US$20!!! In The End the price increase due to the auction!!

Another Group Photo

Group Photo again

Before we went for dinner...

Pinguin For auction.. DAMN CUTE!!

Third Last day
during the third last day, i went back to vientiane... it took us around 6 hours again to arrive.... i could not fell asleep.. so i just listen to my mp3 and tried to sleep but i can't sleep.. i tried with different position but i still can't sleep so i shifted to the back of the bus and tried to sleep but i still could not sleep... so in the end listened to my mp3 and laid down at the back of the bus.... when i reached Novotel Hotel i started to feel that i am not well but in the i drank cryshantemum tea and panadol....after that i went to the orphanage... when i went and saw them i felt very sad... most of them could not see.. it really felt touched when i saw them especially when i thought back that i did not appreciate a lot of stuff that i got.... they sang a lot of songs for us... we gave our used clothes, candies and some other stuffs.... we also did balloon sculpturing and made it to certain shape and gave it to them.... after they performing we went to perform.. at first we planned to sing if we hold on togehter but when we sang that song it was rather unsuccesful so we sang our own school song for the perfomance.... after the performance we talked to the teacher for a while and we go to the places of attraction.. we went to the temple there... it was amaizing when i saw the temple because it was different from the temple in Singapore or Indonesia.. me and alfred went in for awhile to pray... then we took some pictures and we headed back to the hotel... we ate our dinner beside the hotel... it was chinese restaurant.... the food taste quite good but there were some food that it taste really awful.... after dinner we saw firework to commemorate the birthday of their country's prince... then we headed to chinatown to take a looked their chinatown... i started not feeling well again... i felt my body was really cold but i still follow them until they stopped at the italian restaurant and i could not bear with it anymore.. my was really cold so borrowed kimberly's jacket... thanks Kimberly for lending ur jacket.... then they bought pizza and prata... then we headed back to our hotel and went to miss wu's room for reflection and debrief.... after that we went back to our room to sleep... this is some of the photos....

the whole group at the temple

with the kids at the places of attraction..

The orphanage..

the name of the orphanage..

the orphanage children performing for us..

Our performances..

our performances again...

the second last day
the second last day we went to thailand.... we reached at about 12pm.. we straight away went to the hotel and put our stuff... when we reached Thailand we were excited because the hotel was much more better than Laos... after that we went to eat our lunch.. the restaurant that they brought us was inside the guiness book of record..
the food taste much more better than the food in laos..after our lunch we went to Mabukong to do our SHOPPING!!!!!! the things in Mabukong quite cheap so we bought a lot of stuff..... we shopped for very long time.. after we went for shopping, we met Samuel at Mabukong..... then we headed for dinner... when on the way for dinner, i saw someone looks so familiar and she was miss poli... she really have with us.. when in laos she was saying that if we met in thailand, we really have faith and we really met in thailand.. so we went to eat together and went for dinner together... after dinner we went to the night market until it was around 10 pm and most of us already very very tired... so we went to take our shower... we planned to had party but Miss wu went for massage so in the end, we had our own party but it didn't last long.. some of them have their pillow fight while me and Kimberly started to fall asleep...after sometime we went back to our room to sleep because we could not bear already... this is some of the photos...

After dinner

During dinner..

People in our table..

Me and Euginia Shopping stuffs...

last day
this was the last day for the whole GOS trip... after our breakfast we went to the airport to go back to spore.... we were almost late again so we started to run again.. we were late because some of them stuck at the immigration counter due to the long queue.... eventhough we were almost late, me and janine still could bought soft toys for ourself.... LOL... so the end of the whole GOS Trip.. i have really gain a lot of experiences and the fun time that i had with all of you was amaizing... i hope u all will always remember this trip.... i really had great experiences through this trip..... there will be more photos showing up....
Here are the photos..