What a melancholic moment again.. After looking through my hard drive, suddenly i missed all of my friends.. When I stayed in Teresa, i used to share songs with Jo... When I looked through all my songs, around 30% came from Jo.. I missed cleaning up our room with her but we ended up doing a pillow fight.. My Hendersonian'friends how are you guys there? GMIS and Teresa people how are you guys too? GB Girls how are you? I missed gathering at McDonald Tiong with the Indonesian to study.. I missed 4E2 people including their jokes that never failed to make me laugh.. Interrupt the teachers with jokes.. :D GB girls i missed our meetings and sometimes hang out at Tiong McDonald or opposite school Chicken Rice Stall.. Studying for o-level exams in front of the staff room. Date with Jenny and Wilona on 07/07/07.. When is our next date? Waiting for the next date... I missed eating in the classroom during break with the GMIS people.. I miss gathering with these people.. We should gather again sometime... It was such a long time ago that we gathered.. Pictures really speak thousand words about our memories that never fade away from our mind... Farewell is hard enough, but missing people is even harder...


It was such a melancholic moment when you look through your photo albums.. I was looking through my photo album about my memory in Singapore and some during my middle school.. I was thinking that it is good to stay young forever because we have less responsibilities and problems.. When I stayed in Singapore, I really had a good memories of being accepted... Although it was kind of suffering with studies especially during my final year in my secondary school. Most of our time will be spent for studying the final year examination.. Even though, the time was spent for studying but it was actually the best bonding time with your classmates, students from other classes, roommates and even your housemates... I think it was the best memory that I ever had.. I had friends that can spend time with me whenever I was bored or in bad situations..

Ever since I moved to Seattle, a lot of struggle things happened.. However, thank god that I experienced a lot of struggling stuffs because i learned more about my self. The struggle things that i experienced were being hate by your friends, insulted by your friends and the lost of acceptance.. One day, most of my friends went to eat and i didn't know about it. Due to the camp, I called one of my friend that would be going for the camp to ask about the torch. I asked her, where was she now? She said she just finished eating with a lot of people. From that moment, I knew that I was not accepted. Some of my friends that went there were not really closed with that group of people. I even asked my self what did i do until they did not invite me.. I had my own principle that I did not cheat during quiz and exam. One of my friends insulted me that I tried to be pure. However, during all the struggle time, thank god that one of my friends really supported me and accepted me no matter who am i. I really felt very blessed that i have such a good friend.

A few months ago, I moved to Ohio due to my university. At first, I was afraid that I would not like this place. However, it turns out different from what I expected. God really gives me more than what I expected, especially the community. I really feel comfortable with the community of people. Although this place did not have a lot of entertainment, however i really feel happy in this place. After joining the home group, I really reflected a lot. One of the things that i reflected was acceptance. During my time in Seattle, i only seek acceptance from people.. It is really had to satisfy everyone just because you want to get accepted by people.

So, now my believe was just be the way you are because you are worthy in the eyes of god and god doesn't see you by the appearance and acceptance. Thank you god for the experiences and putting me in the best place. I really love my new place. Last but not least, Go buckeyes and OH-IO.. :D


When I say sorry to you, you will think you are the winner and you are right. However, this does not happen to you because all your actions and whatever you said to me had hurt me so much.... I was laughing because I was reflecting to myself that whatever you said to my friend reflected on your character.. You can comment on others but we can't comment on you because you always think that you are the correct one.. Thus, I promised myself that i won't comment on you anymore and hope you can change into better person.. My patience level has reached the maximum... The reason, I said sorry because I did not want to argue with you anymore because you will argue back to me and i felt stupid for arguing with people who are super stubborn.. You said to my friend that my friend hurt you.. Have you ever think how many people that you have hurt? You can said that words can be sharp as knife, have you ever realized that you did said things to people that hurt people so much? You can said that you did not want to be Driver and help people only it is necessary.... However, you said different things when you just bought your car.. You said you want to give blessings to other people... Isn't it reverse from what you said? When you want to help people, please help people from the bottom of your heart and not only because you want to gain advantages from them.. Sorry, that kind of friendship won't last long... You can show your outside appearance to be good but slowly people can see your inside.... I always remind myself that you did not need to show how good you are, but people can see it from your action.. I felt stupid for wasting my time to help you but you didn't really appreciate it...


Too many stuff happening to me especially after i come back from holiday... Too many things that i just found out that make me kind irritated.. First,the people that i think that they are my best friends and treated them with respect, disappoint me by making use of me.. I helped them with my best ability but what did they give me back... Talking about me behind my back... Use physical figure to make trade mark for people..

Secondly,I seriously pissed off with him... I saw empty seat at the cafetaria.. I just saw a bag on the chair.. I put down the bag on to the floor and wanted to start eating.. When, i was just about to start eating, he came and he said to me that the chair that i was sitting was his chair.. He wanted to chase me away from that seat while i was just about to start to eat.. I quickly stand up, and i said to him "You chase away a girl from the seat, you are not a gentleman" " If that girl is your girlfriend, you won't chase the girl away." I think he is totally rude and he do not have manners at all..

Thirdly, i know you are rich but that was not the way you treat people... If you want to talk about me, just talk in front of me, you do not need to WHISPER to your friend in front of me.. I was talking to one of my friends.. After she finished talking with me, another friend called her and she whispered in front of me..

Seriously, i love this school for certain point of time.. The rest, i kind of hate this school because i did not really find a really true friends here.. The things that they do towards their friends are gossiping about their friends, make use of their friends, backstabber, and trying to show off how rich they are... I can count the number of people that i can trust and respect them.. The richer you are, the more humble you are.. However, this was not the things that happened.. The richer they are, the more they look down on people, and the more they show off the their wealth...

Lastly, i will be having final tomorrow.. I really hoped that i can really score well for this exam.... On Wednesday, i will be going back to Indonesia.. Kind of excited for this coming holiday.. :D God, please have mercy with me.. Help me with my exam.. I really need your power.. For those people who are having holiday, happy holiday.. I will meet you all soon.. :D

~.~sTeFFi~.~


Yeah today's weather is totally bad... Actually, the weather has been bad since yesterday.. It is really hot that i had been sweating like mad.. When i stepped out from my house, i started to sweat due to the heat... The heat is really unbearable... Can you all imagine the temperature today is 41 degree? The temperature in Seattle is even hotter in Asia... Like XL said 41 degree=fever...Furthermore, my room does not have air con or fan...

Yesterday, i went to looked for fan with my friend at Factoria. I was looking for fan at three stores in Factoria which are Target,Safeway and Rite Aid. Not even a single store has fan.. All the fans are sold out... I was thinking that i think i could bear with the heat without fan or air con but in the end i could not bear it... The whole night, i cannot do anything because of the heat...

Today in the afternoon, i went to move some of my things again. Thanks to William for helping me...Furthermore today's temperature is even hotter than yesterday.. it is 41 degree.. Today is the highest temperature that Seattle has ever reach during Summer season... Before moving my stuff, to my new house, we went to look for fan at QFC and Walgreen.. The fan were sold out at both of this places.. William heard that fan will be arriving at Walgreen.. When we went there, the fan already out of stock.. The sales person told us that the fans were being sold out within half an hour.. I was pretty shocked by that... Due to the super hot weather, people are craving for fan... After that, we went to my house to put some of my stuff.. When i moved my stuff to my room, i found a fan. I quickly called my new houseparent to ask whether can i borrow the fan.. At first she said she needed it.. Then i confirmed with her again the fan at my going to be room.. Finally she said ok.. I was asking her did she had another extra fan.. She said she do not have it.. After moving, we went to Fred Meyer to check for fan again but the was out of stock.. The fans were sold out at 8 am in the morning... When we are not successful finding the fan, we decided to just go back home... My room now had a fan.. Thank god for it...It is really better but i still need to open my window.. :D

Now i have to end here and everyone in Seattle just bear with the weather for awhile.. Those who just went back to Indonesia from Seattle.. You are really lucky.. :D Finally, those people in Asia, appreciate the good weather that you have.. :D
Anyway, i am very excited that i will be going back to Indo and visit Singapore soon.. :D

Cheers,
Steffi



First of all, sorry for not updating my blog for so long and to start of my post, let me update about my birthday.. Someone keep on asking me to update about my birthday.. hahahaha... :D On 24th June- 26th June i went to the leadership retreat together with the school... Some of my indonesian friends also went to the camp. The people are: Billy,Janet,Stella,Karen,Michelle,Jesan,Yosua and William. It was really amazing and exciting camp.. I was really having fun there... If you wanted to know what happened at the camp, you can take a look at the photo that me and my friends posted it at facebook.. Now let me talk about what happened to my birthday..

On 25th June, it was couple of my friends birthday but they did not go for the camp.. There was only one person who came to the camp and her birthday fell on 25th June... I already knew that they were planning for something for her but i just kept quiet... After the rope course, we had dinner.. I saw couple of my Indonesian friends were talking to the one of the camp instructors, i was already guessing that she will be giving surprise to my friend but i was not expecting that it was also for me.. While i was queuing for my dinner, Janet said to me that she already took fork and spoon for me.. So i just sat down where she put my fork and spoon.. She put it at the table where all my indonesian friends were sitting.. :D During in the middle of the dinner, one of my camp instructor together with some of the camp organizer, brought up a cake and balloon.. Furthermore, they sang happy birthday together with the rest of the campers.. I was asked to stand.. I thought it was only for Karen.. Fun Birthday with surprise.. hahahhaha... :D I actually not expecting them to celebrate my birthday during the camp because it will be very troublesome but they did it.. Really proud and appreciate what they had done for the birthday celebration...

On 26th June, That was my actual birthday.. hahahahha... In the morning, before breakfast, i was really not expecting anything... As, i was not expecting anything, i was being tricked by them... Around 7.30 am, we were suppose to gather for breakfast.. I was following them around.. Some of them said that they wanted to go to the washroom, so i just waited at the barrack... The barrack has two exits.. Usually, we went out by the left hand side exit because it will be nearer to go to the canteen... Instead of going that way, we went out at the right hand side of the exit.. While walking almost near the end of the barrack,Billy,William and Janet suddenly popped out... I was really shock because i saw William holding a brownie with a candle on top of it.. They started to sing birthday song again... While they sang the birthday song, the candle was off because the wind blew and they had to light up again... After blowing the candle, they passed a me a card and eventually we went to gather for breakfast... Thank you to guys so much.. I was not expecting any surprise for my birthday but you all did it for me.. I was really shocked by it and i really appreciate the memory that you created for my birthday.. :D

On June 30th, We went to Cafe Ori for dinner and I treated them.. hahahahaa... I was really having fun talking to them.. The people who came are: Jennifer,Yunita,Jesan,Karen,Janet,Caca,Billy,William,Henny,Lenny,Johan,Yosua,Michael,
Stephen,Ismail,Radius,Calvin,Andre,Alvin,Kenneth,Patrick and Steffie... I chose that date because some of them will be going back to Indo and we would not see each other again.. So, i wanted to have this dinner so that we can gather and in the same time to celebrate my birthday.. I was fooled again for the second time.. This time round, the mercer boys bought a cake for me.. I was shocked by it but i really felt happy... Here are some of the pictures..

This part are the events happened on 24th and 25th June..


Me and Karen (birthday girls)


All the indonesian people except William..



Yellow Team ROCKS!!!!




We the indonesian people facing back because of the last name at the back of the sweat shirt.. hehehee... :D


Team D... (Delta, DDawg ROCKS!!!!)

This Part happened on 26th June:


Blowing the candle after they popped out.. hahha.. :D


Getting the cake... :D


Photo with some of my friends and the card that i am holding... :D


The message they wrote on the card..


The design of the card..


This part happened on 30th June..



Cake brought by the mercer boys.. Blowing the cake... :D



Cutting the cake.. :D




Henny Helped me to cut the cake... :D



The girls that came... This photo supposed to include Henny and Lenny but they left first because they needed to pack up their stuff before they went back to Indonesia at night.. :D Yunita left first because she needed to go somewhere else....


The girls again....



The boys..



Some of the girls.. :D



Everyone that came.. This photo supposed to inclued Johan,Lenny and Henny.. Johan sent Lenny and Henny back home.. :D


Some of the boys and me...



Last but not least i want to say thank you to you all that gave me the surprised during the camp.. Actually i am not expecting you all to give me the surprise but you all did a fantastic job.. I was really shocked by all the surprises that you all gave and appreciated all the things that you all had done... It was really memorable birthday for me... Lastly, thank you to all of you that wished me happy birthday.. Really appreciated... :D

~.~sTeFFi~.~

Thursday, July 02, 2009 ♥

affection and love showed @ 11:07 PM.

I don't really understand why there are some people's treatment towards others are so fake? Why can't they just be truth towards themselves? They should know that they are fake towards someone but why they still do it? If they are fake, it also mean that they are lying towards themselves.. If you don't like someone to be around you then just tell the truth.. Why must you use a lot of reasons just to cover that? In fact, it does not work at all.. People can see it...

In this world there are two types of friends. One is really true friends and another one is fake friends.. True friends will always be there for you. While for fake friends, they find you because they want something from you... Personally, i think its better to find friends that truth and straight forward towards you even though sometimes it might hurt you how they delivered the message because they are the people who can correct your mistakes, be truth and accept whoever you are... While fake friends, they only want to be around you because they want something from you.. They try to be fake so that they get close with you and get the things they want and after that, they left...

Personally i think if we want other people to change, we should change ourselves first... Introspect yourselves first then you can expect others to change.. I agree that people have their negative points but they also should understand other people negative points. Then they can worked well but if you don't understand the people and you expect them to change, then that does not improve anything in your friendship especially relationship...

Lastly, how would you feel when someone doesn't invite you for dinner while the rest of your friends are there? Furthermore, you don't even know that they are having dinner.. When you call one of your friends, he or she told you that they are having dinner or just finished having dinner... After that, one of your friends that was having dinner asked you why you did not go? Personally, i will feel hurt even you do not expect them to invite you... Especially, the reason they did not invite you because they forgot about it..

I think its better to be patient and someday you will receive more... :D